The best revenge is in living well

“And it isn’t anyone’s fault I made the decisions I made, this is the life I chose or rather the life that chose me. If you can’t respect that, your whole perspective is whack – may be you love me when I fade to black…”

It’s really easy to go from hero to zero. It’s even harder when there is no light at the end of the tunnel. X is unhappy and hurt by the people around him. There is a party going on and you are not invited. There is no one for you to confide in. No one sees what you see, knows what you know. X is not perfect, has made mistakes – but his intentions were good. His heart was big. Now he is alone, and his cries are unanswered.
Memory and a conscience are really burdensome. How nice would it be to forget and move on? To not be affected by the hypocrisy and failings of the world around you? There is no one to share your grief – when you cannot be happy, must the world do the same? Should others bear your burden? They don’t. Nobody can. You have to allow others to find their own happiness, even if it is as your expense.
Despair changes a person. You become bitter and desperate. You abandon the principles that hold you together. It is hard to not been drawn into pettiness. It is hard not to fight and to hurt, to force others to see what you see, to know what you know. Why not?

"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you”

Nietzsche was right. When you abandon that which defines you, the very core of what made you feel hurt in the beginning, you become a monster. Misery loves company but that high quickly fades. Unhappiness cannot breed happiness. The ends never define the means
And that’s the bottom line. Sometimes you must suffer and die, so one day you can live again. Sometimes it is better to not speak, not to fight. Forget karma, forget what goes around comes around. This is personal. You can’t find healing in the world around you, only in yourself. Life’s a bitch.

“Anyone who has declared someone else to be an idiot, a bad apple, is annoyed when it turns out in the end that he isn't.” - Nietzsche

Jar “the bad apple”